A messy start

I wish I could say 'look at this! Isn't my blog pretty?', because I did understand this whole blog thing at one time...a little bit anyway, but instead I'm started with...'please excuse the mess'. I really should have that tattooed on my forehead, my house, my office, usually my kids heads (look I don't know how that yogurt got there!), I'm constantly apologizing for things.
But that's the problem, I apologize, and worry about impressions when in comes to everyone else, the person who doesn't get that same respect is me.  I make so many promises to myself and don't follow through on them.  My intention going forward is to work on changing that.  
I've heard the term 'grace' a lot lately, give yourself grace, offer grace to others.  I didn't really understand it, but I'm getting there.  It's being gentle, meet yourself or others where they are, and allow the opportunity for growth.
So, what is this place going to look like? What's it all about? (well, once i figure out how to work this whole blogger world again)

1. My family...my amazing, drive me crazy, make me laugh til I cry family.
   
   Those three right there? They are my life, I can barely look at this picture without wanting to run into their rooms and squeeze them! (but I'm not crazy...6am will come soon enough;)
2. My journey to health...this is a long one, I'm going to leave that for another day.
3. Learning to not just keep promises for everyone else, but to me. Finding a way to give myself the respect that I give to everyone else, and it physically hurts to type this but, learn to 'love myself'...seems simple enough, still searching for the path to this one.
4. Who knows what else!? I used to diary as a kid...oh the angst of a 13 year old/21 year old...good reading I tell ya. So who knows what might show up here.  But I'm looking forward to figuring that out. 4

So that's it...we'll see what happens here...hopefully things are going to get very interesting.